i shall make my um, debut entry here. =)
yesterday. our very last -official- so called "event" in rgco, as a proper member of the orchestra. it's been a long 4 years, save for the last 6 months, which seemed to fly by. it was almost too fast, and i emphasise, almost. while i undeniably couldn't wait for the end to be upon us, for us to officially graduate from the orchestra, and for concert to be over and done with, when concert did eventually pass us by there was this.. somehow nearly nostalgic feel about the whole thing. 10th july 2004 probably marked the very last time i'd play a complete piece on the zhonghu, hell, perhaps even the very last time i'd touch the instrument. and thus my apparent love, or rather the lackof, for the instrument that i've been stuck with for the previous.. 2.5 years, if im not mistaken.
it's been 4 years of craziness on my part. at the beginning it was merely coming up with excuses for not turning up, i'll admit. then later on it was the juggling of mad schedules, working round fully-packed days, coming for 15min-pracs, and the list goes on. but it's precisely these things that make one's secondary school life so much more memorable, and no matter how much I've griped in the past, I'd like to thank rgco for giving me this part of my secondary school life.
i never imagined that I'd miss anything remotely related to rgco; to be perfectly honest, such a notion was not in the least likely. but towards the end, it struck me how it's been 4 years, no doubt 4 years of griping about 'that blasted hu', but no doubt 4 memorable years with people i know im going to miss.
to the gaohu and zhonghu batch of 02 and 03, thankyou for picking me for zhonghu when i was in sec2, though i am aware of what an indisputable disappointment i've been all this while. As mindy put it, it was a given for gaohu people to be enthu in general about co; I should think it'd be likewise for zhonghu people. and yet i never gave my all to rgco, never put in my best, or anywhere close, what with psb and spsb in the last 2 years, and my various other commitments which took precedence in my life over co. but now that im already leaving, I realize how much the zhonghu people mean to me, even right down to the sec1s, cos somehow the bonds we've forged are (surprisingly or otherwise) really strong, and the memories you've all given me truly indelible.
rgco gave me something no other organization has ever given me, something I wont try putting down in words, for expression might spoil it all. but thankyou all for everything, and I mean everything. in some ways i regret not putting more of myself in co, but now it doesn't matter anymore.
all the sec1s to 3s, ganbatte ne! jiayouu for syf05, you'all have got your work cut out in the months ahead if you'all want that gold =) and, all the sec2s who might be considering application into psb, do go ahead, it's an unforgettable experience, but at the same time don't ever do what i did in neglecting co almost entirely for psb, cos these are 2 entirely different entities, and a nice healthy balance would serve you better.
kayy, sorry for such a long post, and all the best yea. we promise to visit =)
-gillianne
