farewell
hee. blogging at the request of esther.
hm. today was... farnie. i never thought i'd be in this position. haha. it feels weird, unpredictable. ok, i did sorta think about what it'd be like, but experiencing it is another thing.
sec1 to 4 is really tumultous. (or izzit tumultuous. will the expert speller, samantha, confirm this?) every year really go through different feelings. i'm gonna refer to the farewell-time emotions. my experience here. hee. cuz me blogging mah. =p
sec1: i didn't really bother about co -_-" that's why this year's sec1s amaze me. anyhow. u're in the "goodness, i'm gonna have jnrs! whee!" mood.
sec2: then responsibilities increase. some get comm positions and others feel more duties falling on their shoulders. "abit sad that sec4s r going. but i'm gonna be upper sec, so kewl. i wonder how it's like. and i'm gonna be able to sit in in meetings and help at cca functions!"
sec3: "omg, sec4s r leaving. ahh, i'm gonna be sec4! responsibilities crush u. comm positions trample on u. ahh, i'm gonna be the biggest here. oh dear, how to teach my jnrs. i cant play well myself."
sec4: "whee, it's over! i'm done with co! no more practices! *relievedd* throw everything at new committee!!!" then... "hm. i miss co. it's... finally over. but. it's sorta nostalgic and sad. tempted to go back and see their xiaozu and dazu, but, maybe i shouldn't..."
lol, actually, cannot put in words one lah.
it's very queer too. cuz u realise u r doing what ur seniors did to u. and ur juniors are doing what you did. u suddenly realise how ur snr felt. and to u, it was different. haha.
hm. xianyue has changed me. lots. i think i'm different in rgco and outside. in rgco, i'm like... talking. organising. moving things on. outside, like in class, i don't express anything in class. i go red and into shock when the teacher calls me. haha. i think, for this, i gotta thank my snrs, who prob won't see this. they made me crappier, seriously. and if not for them, i prob still wouldn't care much about rgco. =p
this year has warped me. i'm now less patient than before? dunno is that good or bad. and i actually announce stuff. but i think that only applies in co. rgco, to be precise.
not sure if it's changed me outside co tho. i guess to some extent, naturally. but not so much. at least, i can sorta feel the difference.
i've learnt alot. many things i never knew about administration and organisation. i learnt it, sometimes the hard way, but i still did realise it. this'll follow me as i go on with life i'm sure.
and conducting xiaozu has made lotsa difference in my life. i finally feel how the teacher feels. and sometimes i feel guilty when i talk in class. haha. but it's quite kewl, thinking of new ways to teach stuff. but i think i didn't do a good job of this. i failed to consider xiaozus beforehand and plan what i wanted to do. i always impromptu and was fervently looking at the time, calculating how i should spend the time. haish. i'm sorry. it's just that i wanna make sure i accomplish what i wanted to do. furthermore, i'm not very good with my music, and i'm a worse listener. still, i hope u all did pick up sth.
they say experience is the best teacher. i agree wholeheartedly. so, hm, go experience, and savour each and every experience.
farewell was great. u juniors r too sweet. u all melted all ur snrs' hearts. from the dance, to the presents, to the time and effort. i can really tell u all put lotsa thought into it. each and every of you. the dance was undoubtedly the best and most touching item. the things u all did to make this a special day for us. spending unimaginable durations thinking of presents and cards. they were realy touching. i'm sure all the sec4s were moved. utterly. even mindy, as much as she doesn't cry.
well. i wanna say. u all have certainly done a very good job so far with xiaozus and functions. every single one of u is coming out and doing ur bit for rgco(huuz). so proud of u all. my jnrs!
so. jiayou for syf! keep this spirit burning! and remember to infect your juniors too! syf, must aim for the best k. must do ur best k. try not to be too last minute yar? i know it's easy to say and hard to carry out. but i'm sure if u all push each other a little, it won't be too bad. already, i've seen the passion soar and practice times increase. whether they're formal or informal practice. keep it up! u've fulfilled the dreams of many of your seniors.
i think RGCO has done a good job with dynamics and even qi4 shi4. of cuz, this doesn't mean u all can disregard it. must always emphasise it. and qi4 shi4 is really a factor that differentiates rgco from other COs. serious. especially when the piece is sth like manjianghong. and of cuz stuff like controlling ur gong.
but i think, presently, RGCO's more prevalent problem is yinzhun, stability of tempo and rigidness. i know yin zhun isn't easy to lian4. i still havent got it right. but do pay attention to it. they say practising yin jies help. i guess so. but i think for me practising the piece itself helps. i practise that bit that i always go bu zhun. i practise the 2 notes that needs jumping and i always get bu zhun, till i can feel the distance reasonably accurately. that's my way, of cuz.
for concert, i found that the tempo for manjianghong, esp the kuai4 ban3 part, was rather unstable. we were going slightly faster and slower, like we weren't very comfortable with the tempo. this means we gotta practise with the metronome. and not just aim for playing fast. when u've played the passage at a fast pace for some time, i think maybe should slow down the speed and see if u can still play each and every note clear at a stable tempo. there's a possibility that u'll start to gan3, means gotta prac slow to make ur tempo more wen3 zhong4.
rigidness is really prominent and has been for many years. u all did the dance. i know u all can move. and move real well. so do it on the chair! just move left and right. forward and backward. and don't forget u're on stage. u gotta amplify ur movements so that the audience is able to see it. u may feel weird and exaggerated, the audience see u as just nice. or even too little. i really hope to see rgco moving. not just some people.
hm. i better stop. anyway i'm running outta things to say lah. i'm really sorry for hogging ur time. i'm amazed if u've read till here. i hope this helps RGCO. these r probably things i failed to do, and hoping u all can do. hope u all don't think i only know how to talk. hehz. if so, delete this post then.
remember, stay optimistic no matter how difficult it is. and u definitely can do this cuz ur snrs believe in you and have faith in you. accomplish what we failed to do!
-huiling
